its 18 may... and it means i've already 8 days at home with do nothing!
but i do cook for lunch and tidy up my house ok.....
today, i just watched angels and demons with my brothers, jon and fariz with my sister in law, kak cc!!
the best movie ever watch since 4 months back...
tabik spring uoll...
i like the cinematography, the rome's architectures, and the flow of the story...
fabulous..
dont be a man if dont watch this movie!
rugi uoll..
p/s: sorry nad.. aku janji nak tgk ngan kamu.. aku da call tp kamu x angkat... sorry sgt.. nanti aku teman kamu tgk lagi.. akibat pereputan di rumah aku ni!
i quite emotional today because my brothers...hmmmm.. malas lah nak citer.. biasalah gaduh2 manja ngan adik beradik...
then i geledah my drawer, i found my so called secret diary since year of 2001..
omg... malu nyer baca ayat2 sekolah yg bodoh2 dulu!! hahahahaha...
ada cerita cinta monyet sekolah2 dulu la...
curahan hati kucing matila...
eeeee.... malunya baca balik!!
then i just continue writing it by reporting my current status now like what im doing now, how old am i now... and everything....
talking about childhood diary or so called secret diary (complete with mangga berkunci...)
i am asking myself.. did everyone has their own diary when they were child..
as i read through page by page.. i realize that once myself was full with hopes and promises such as what ive written in my diary:
- target 11 a1 for spm
- janji solat 5 waktu
- ....... n bla bla bla bla... malu uoll nak citer
childhood time is where we full with hopes and promises.. and so as today..
but the different is remembering all the hopes and promises we made during childhood will refresh back what we really want in this life.
although some of the hopes is quite unrealistic and shallow, but still we knew what we want and why we are today.
it happens to me.
the issues here, as i went through diploma and degree life, too many things happened and yet i forgotten almost all of them. too many things to remember. so tired to remember all.
im not sure is it me the problem of masalah lupa ke apa... but its true too many things to remember and its tiring.
remembering all those memory shows the beautiful gift god gave to us for human to restore all the memory and their rational view.
but sometimes we misuse it and didnt admit the wrongdoing.
what happen to the world today is so disgusting and humiliating... as u know.. we human with brain destroy others with no concrete reason and yes we are irrational sometimes.
the newspaper reported today, malaysia confirmed its second A(H1N1) case in georgetown.
and we also heard about the case of "acute pericarditis" in Seremban and meningitis.
from where we get those illneses... from human itself, from what we had done.
we are all too much crossing the border of humanity and rationality.
we should set our mind and back to the real track.
we need to support each other and yet its hard to mould our mind and belief to be one.
as what i heard Dato' Fadzillah Kamsah said this early morning through era's radio, lets us all be like a baby back. a baby are full with love, smile and happiness. No hatred, no discrimination and not emotional. its is not imposible for us to be back as a baby because we all have already experienced it once. let us abolish the feeling of what we dont need to have now.
as what i said, our childhood aims, hopes and promises are so raw, virgin and natural.
because of the environment which made by the human itself, we turn to be wild animals.
I sometimes hope to God that i'll be tough doing what i do now.
im so not brave to face my practical training this december.
eventhough it is like 5 months more to go but i can feel the challenge and fear now.
yes nadia told me before, its like 5 months to go and u need to relax..
but i felt the other way.
as what syefah said, im fragile and yes i admit it and what do you think of it am i? judge for yourself.
Im preparing my mind and soul to face the industry.
as what proffesor roslena said during my special topics in journalism's class, its a mean world syndrome we have today.
and i hope it is not that mean.
dont worry, i still believe this life is so wonderful
and people please seek your childhood diary during this semester break or any days.
and i guarantee,you'll gonna laugh like hell!
good nite.
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