tomorrow..

kind of unhappy day for me..

my lovely ayah, Hj Dzulkifli Mohd Zaman will go for Umra with her sister, Aiza with their niece, abg azman & kak An.My mother not joining them due to some circumstances. So i'll be staying at home & look for her.
Im happy because my father finally fulfil his dream to be back again to Mecca and doing his 4th umra. Every Ramadhan, I always heard him crying during subuh prayer hoping to be in Mecca and doing his umra or Hajj. As his age reaching nearly 62 years this year, he spend most of his time learning Quran more in-depth as most of his time before spend with working. After retirement, he started to learn everything that he left.

He is actually go to mecca to accompany abg man & his wife. Abg man is facing something like nerve problem and never been to mecca n of course need guidance from old people. N my ayah will help him to guide during umra. While Kak an is not in a good condition as her breast cancer getting worst. Ya Allah, anak2 diorg kecik2 lagi. My Allah take care of his family.

Im soooooo close to my ayah but not manja or gedik. As i wake up everyday, i always run downstairs to find them 1st. I believe everyone loves their parents very much. It is just we show it differently. Thats why i ulang alik from shah alam.. Yes, iam homesick n i want to see their face everyday.

Love ur parents and watch their face everyday as many times as u can before they left to somewhere.
My father is not yet going to mecca but i've already miss him eventhough he is actually now sleeping in his room.

Ya Allah, semoga ayahku selamat pergi dan selamat pulang.
I love u ayah & ibu.

etiell, Ayah & Ibu. (I love u both so much)



Nanad a.k.a Noor Nadia Alias a.k.a pondan telok pulai

Esok kamu g Aussie jumpa kak ngah. Sorry x dpt anta kamu. Undertaker byk hal x settle lagi. Btw enjoy ur holiday and hope after the holiday, it will be a new nadia & coolest, toughest, gorgous and bisulnest than before...erk~~ salah sorry..

Semoga kamu sihat walafiat dan bebaik dowh influenza AH1N1 da meningkat. Pakai lah mask untuk keselamatn n kalau nak lebih hot baik kamu jahit topeng ala2 spiderman.
X payah la beli pape do ntok aku janji kamu spend duit kamu pi enjoy habis-habisan. Pi layan je la stripper club ke gay club ke.. Asalkan kamu enjoy & lupa suma benda2 yg lalu.. Sayang kamu do..

Kak ngah, rindu kamu sgt.

Sorry la x dpt contact kamu selalu.. kredit da 2 minggu x top up n internet pun pancung wifi sapa ntah berdekatan umah ni. JAga diri juga. ALang2 ada nanad kat sana, pi la buat topeng udara keselamatan. Kak ngah kan orang gaji berkelulusan Masters and Degree. PAsti bole buat suma. Kalau bole buat mask yg ada bulu2 ayam warna pink and letak bling2 kat tepi2 nye. Glam uoll.
Sayang korg sgt.




Syefah, etil & Nanad(Sorry uoll gambar tahun bila ntah)



Sedey la pulak suma org yg ku sayang x da di sisi..huhuhu.. x pe ibu ada.. i'll take care my ibu.

p/s: Congrats to Hezreen & Sarah yang baru nikah tadi kat Kundang, Morib yg baru kami pergi magrib tadi. Uoll Kundang tu mmg jauh. Mcm pegi Melaka.. Sakit pinggang akak.


Good nite Taman Seri Andalas.. erk~~ andalas?? Hope tomorrow will be such a fine day. Emosi plak mlm ni.

Have a nice day!

Do you have childhood diaries?

its 18 may... and it means i've already 8 days at home with do nothing!
but i do cook for lunch and tidy up my house ok.....

today, i just watched angels and demons with my brothers, jon and fariz with my sister in law, kak cc!!
the best movie ever watch since 4 months back...
tabik spring uoll...
i like the cinematography, the rome's architectures, and the flow of the story...
fabulous..
dont be a man if dont watch this movie!
rugi uoll..
p/s: sorry nad.. aku janji nak tgk ngan kamu.. aku da call tp kamu x angkat... sorry sgt.. nanti aku teman kamu tgk lagi.. akibat pereputan di rumah aku ni!

i quite emotional today because my brothers...hmmmm.. malas lah nak citer.. biasalah gaduh2 manja ngan adik beradik...
then i geledah my drawer, i found my so called secret diary since year of 2001..
omg... malu nyer baca ayat2 sekolah yg bodoh2 dulu!! hahahahaha...
ada cerita cinta monyet sekolah2 dulu la...
curahan hati kucing matila...
eeeee.... malunya baca balik!!
then i just continue writing it by reporting my current status now like what im doing now, how old am i now... and everything....

talking about childhood diary or so called secret diary (complete with mangga berkunci...)
i am asking myself.. did everyone has their own diary when they were child..
as i read through page by page.. i realize that once myself was full with hopes and promises such as what ive written in my diary:

• target 11 a1 for spm
• janji solat 5 waktu
• ....... n bla bla bla bla... malu uoll nak citer
  

childhood time is where we full with hopes and promises.. and so as today..
but the different is remembering all the hopes and promises we made during childhood will refresh back what we really want in this life.
although some of the hopes is quite unrealistic and shallow, but still we knew what we want and why we are today.
it happens to me.

the issues here, as i went through diploma and degree life, too many things happened and yet i forgotten almost all of them. too many things to remember. so tired to remember all.
im not sure is it me the problem of masalah lupa ke apa... but its true too many things to remember and its tiring.

remembering all those memory shows the beautiful gift god gave to us for human to restore all the memory and their rational view.
but sometimes we misuse it and didnt admit the wrongdoing.
what happen to the world today is so disgusting and humiliating... as u know.. we human with brain destroy others with no concrete reason and yes we are irrational sometimes.

the newspaper reported today, malaysia confirmed its second A(H1N1) case in georgetown.
and we also heard about the case of "acute pericarditis" in Seremban and meningitis.
from where we get those illneses... from human itself, from what we had done.

we are all too much crossing the border of humanity and rationality.
we should set our mind and back to the real track.
we need to support each other and yet its hard to mould our mind and belief to be one.

as what i heard Dato' Fadzillah Kamsah said this early morning through era's radio, lets us all be like a baby back. a baby are full with love, smile and happiness. No hatred, no discrimination and not emotional. its is not imposible for us to be back as a baby because we all have already experienced it once. let us abolish the feeling of what we dont need to have now.

as what i said, our childhood aims, hopes and promises are so raw, virgin and natural.
because of the environment which made by the human itself, we turn to be wild animals.

I sometimes hope to God that i'll be tough doing what i do now.
im so not brave to face my practical training this december.
eventhough it is like 5 months more to go but i can feel the challenge and fear now.
yes nadia told me before, its like 5 months to go and u need to relax..
but i felt the other way.
as what syefah said, im fragile and yes i admit it and what do you think of it am i? judge for yourself.

Im preparing my mind and soul to face the industry.
as what proffesor roslena said during my special topics in journalism's class, its a mean world syndrome we have today.

and i hope it is not that mean.

dont worry, i still believe this life is so wonderful

and people please seek your childhood diary during this semester break or any days.
and i guarantee,you'll gonna laugh like hell!
good nite.